Thursday, June 15, 2017

Anticipation!


     I was having somewhat of a sleepless night and about mid-night I had to get out of bed and move to my recliner in the front room.  I was sitting there for several minutes and then it dawned on me that in a couple of hours it would be the end of winter.  Spring would finally be making an appearance.  For me here in the Mountain states that was to occur that morning, March 20, 2017 at 4:29 AM. Since I couldn’t really sleep anyway, I thought I’d just stay awake and watch “the change” take place.

     I was a little drowsy but I fought the inclinations to fall asleep and I continued with great anticipation awaiting the FIRST signs of spring!  I’m not sure HOW I was able to do it, but I did!  So I got myself positioned in front of our living room window and watched the wall cock tick down the minutes.  Then, as if I had been waiting for a great marching band to come storming down the street, my pulse began to race and the minute hand “clicked” into position!  It was 4:29 AM and spring was here!  I came out of my seat and stood starring out the window.  I heard the minute hand “click” once more.  It was 4:30 AM!  I continued to look out the window.  I’m not exactly sure what I was expecting to see, but I thought there would be SOMETHING!

     Then the minute hand “clicked” again.  It was 4:31 AM!  Everything looked the same as it had a few minutes earlier.  There was no great shift in the cosmos or, at least, a slight tremor in the earth.  Nothing!  The moment came and the moment passed!  Here we were in spring and for some reason I thought I had been cheated out of one of the greatest spectacles to occur in months. But I guess the let-down had actually come because of the anticipation I had created in my own mind and heart so that the actuality didn’t exactly measure up to what I was looking for.  This is something we do in other areas of our lives as well.  Just consider the following two:

     Marriage:  People sometimes spend months (in some cases over a year) planning their perfect wedding day.  All the things that have to be prepared:  the location, the guest list, the cake, the reception, and don’t forget the wedding party!  With all these things taking place and nerves that intensify, the final weeks and days before the big event, its understandable the tension and anxiety that goes through all the people involved.  Then the big day comes, and after about a 30-60 minute program, you’re married!  Regardless of all the anticipation you had going into the wedding, very soon the reality of day-to-day living begins to set in.  Often one or both parties in this arrangement begin to feel like they have been cheated!  Actually BEING married doesn’t “live up to” their anticipation!

     The second area of discussion is HAVING A BABY!  Again here is a period of months that the exciting event covers with various hopes:  Is it going to be a boy or a girl?  Is it going to be healthy?  And there are MANY other “what ifs” to consider.  There’s going to be a period of getting the room (or at least a space) ready for the baby when it leaves the hospital.  There will be ALL those doctor visits and all the exams and those cute little pictures they give you where you TRY to figure out what you’re looking at!  Then the delivery passes and the Mom and baby come home “to real life.”  Sadly some Moms have found that the reality of caring for a baby was not what they anticipated when they were “expecting” the baby.  Often terrible things are done because of their feelings.

     I’d like to point out that I’m not against marriage. I’ve been very happily married to a wonderful and beautiful lady for over 49 years.  And I’m not against families having babies.  We have three incredible children who have grown into wonderful family members themselves.  What I’m trying to express is that at times we take situations as I have mentioned (and there are many others) and build up in our minds what WE THINK is going to be the condition, circumstances or events and we anticipate HOW things are going to turn out.  Then when they are different from our expectations we, at times, are unable or unwilling to deal with them.

     You just have to remember, that in life, not everyone is dealt a perfect hand.  In fact, NO ONE is!  There are NO reset buttons in life!  You have to make the best you can out of what you have.  Is it always fair?  NO!  Is it always just?  NO!  But we change the things we can, where possible, and we live with the rest the best we can.  The biggest problem we have --- we’re only human!

QUOTE TO CONSIDER



THOUGHTFUL GEM

"Marriage ---
the union of two wonderful forgivers."

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